“life will be better in spring”

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Writing this entry below the breezing fan and cooling air cond while enjoying the view from my room feels pretty awesome actually. I could see the whole subang/sunway area and if I'm lucky, I manage to get a glimpse of KL tower from my room. ;). It feels pretty awesome though.

Things get pretty hard to explain at times. Back to the times where biology form 4 and 5 is something so amazing to us, things get pretty laggy when it comes to university life. I swear that I don't realise how powerful our hormones are back then especially during the days of the month. I swear it hit be badly when I started to step my foot into the 20's.

The joy and uplifting enjoyment it gave u at the start of the day and you never know, u end up with despression at the end of the day. Things start to manipulate your mind, you crave for food and you get really fustrated easily. You feel like the whole world hates you for who you are.

Its million times tougher when you decide to unlike something. You may need to find millions of reasons why you unlike it, although deep in your heart, you wish that you could own it by your side.

No worries, this is not a ultimate emo post. Just some thoughts that lingered in my mind these several days and decided to write it out here.

Labels: Rants

Its pretty tough to try to forget bout something and you tried your very best for the last couple of months. You tried to conceal it, forget bout it and think bout other stuffs, but it appears to be pretty unsucessful most of the time.

When you've decided to go for it, you're unsure whether your actions would be a wise thing to do or not. Maybe at times things are like its either you do or die.

At times I prefer to go for it. You never know how you'll end up. Maybe you'll end up getting what you want or vice versa. But at the end of the day, I guess I'll just be glad that I did that. And few years from now, you might just end up smilling when you recall those silly stuffs u did back then.

I think its time to wake up from the dream, imagination or whatever that haunted me these couple of months.

I know, in real fact, they don't exist. But to me, they do. No worries, I am not hallucinating, its just some internal matter that only a handful of people know.

What I knew was, I always take a step further and beyond what I usually do at some circumstances. No worries, not any confessions or anything serious, but its just amazing that how some things can trigger my nerves and do something that I never expect I would ever do it.

I don't know whether am I going to achieve what I hoped for. Stop looking at the past, look at the future instead. But the truth is, I don't think I can even see whats for me in the next semester. Sleepless nights again? and complaining why the heck I choose this combinations of units or why am I in this course? Too late to say something like this ey?

At times I have no idea why, someone so stranger to me could make me think so much, too much infact that at times I couldn't take my mind off it. Someday, maybe. thinking bout it makes me feel silly.
I guess what I could do is, go with the flow. Knowing that its always easier said that done (:

The truth is, you can't expect everyone around you would like who u are. Worst if you tried too hard to change yourself to be who they want you to be. You'll end up making your life and yourself pretty much miserable. At the same time, do remember that they are peeps around you that would just accept who you are. Frankly speaking, whats the point of having thousands of friends in your social network and yet, probably only 10 percent of them or probably less, that you could give a call to when you really need them.

When you find yourself stuck somewhere and you're unsure whether you should move on or not. You really should. Eventhough most of the time, it may just be a no. At least, be proud of yourself that you made it through. nothing feels better than that, seriously. Nothing feels better than giving a try, and you never know what could be waiting for you.

Had been pretty much slacking during the holidays. Exam results were out and pretty much satisfied with it despite the finals are pretty tough. Just glad that I reached the threshold that I set for myself. Maybe accompanied by a slight dissapointment that I could do much better.

What causes them? Distractions.

You'll eventually get hooked up with it.

Badminton is oh so fun. Seriously. Not to mention the aches to the muscle and joints after playing.



with some of the badminton dudes.

I think since I ventured into the life of the Monashians, my life changed pretty much a lot. Somehow or rather I think I:

-got braver and always take a step further whenever I could.
-got addicted to shopping more than ever.
-got more self-concious
-made my life miserable with assignments. (I never get more than 5 hours of sleep a day)

and yeah, most of the time, we end up with calorie loaded lunch. ><


Going to get my own room real soon. :))

Labels: Monash

To me, having a couple of hours, wandering aimlessly in the mall, going into random shops, trying some random shirts and end up buying it.

At times, I just need some precious time alone. which is sort of a tiny luxury for me to indulge myself in.

Labels: shoutout

The more you afraid of losing something, you will eventually lose it. At some point of time, you're undecided and being split between decisions and you are not sure which would be the best one.

From past experience, its not about the consequence of not choosing the other one but not regretting what you have chosen regardless its worst than the other one.

There are countless times where I made the wrong decision, and yes I regretted. What can I do? Mourn over it? Cry over it?

I used to do so, but not now. No idea why. I guessed that I changed.

to someone who don't really give a damn what others think or do what that make others happy and make herself miserable. When life's really miserable, why do you want to add more trouble to yourself just to make others feel happier?

There are quite a number of blogposts without title, not because I am lazy to write one, maybe simply because I can't think of what title to put on whats on my mind currently? Sounds familar? Yeah. Log into facebook and 'Whats on your mind?'. I rarely post personal things inside anymore as facebook is just too open to express how u feel. I mean, any moment, some random people in your friend list would just stalk at your profile and might ask u why she/he cannot view part of your facebook.

Isn't the reason obvious enough?

Lately I would just prefer to post things through my msn shoutouts.

Enjoying every moment of the holiday :)