Badminton is oh so fun. Seriously. Not to mention the aches to the muscle and joints after playing.
with some of the badminton dudes.
I think since I ventured into the life of the Monashians, my life changed pretty much a lot. Somehow or rather I think I:
-got braver and always take a step further whenever I could. -got addicted to shopping more than ever. -got more self-concious -made my life miserable with assignments. (I never get more than 5 hours of sleep a day)
and yeah, most of the time, we end up with calorie loaded lunch. ><
To my beloved uni who offer us this oh so useful CORE unit, and everyone practically wasted 5K, making ourselves miserable enough for finals.
I literally stoned for hours staring at the notes, not knowing what to do. Past years? Maybe, not when they ask u choose the best answers and every answers look familiar to you.
At times, I was just wondering, does generation gap really play some signifcant role ?
I do adore those who thinks that generation is something , I mean be part of them. Someone who you feel safe telling your darkest secrets to, someone whom you would tell who's that cute dude you're interested in. or someone who actually gives constructive comments and do accept constructive comments and not living in a state of denial as we have no rights to voice up what we think because they are again, certainly more superior than us.
Maybe sometime or someday in future where this scenario happens again, I shall just see how would I handle this role.
At the mean time, I seriously have no idea how am I going to go through the dreadful 2 hours tomorrow. And the another 5 hours prior to that where I would be literally nerding in the library and lose concentration easily. Then its shopping time. Did I mention that its mega sales now?
And I still have 2 more papers next week and I'm done with second year, first semester.
At times, the furthest distance is not determined by how many miles we're separated, but its when things are so near yet so far.
Oh yeah, pens down, biochem's just over. and I am glad.
End story.
But the truth is, I am wondering, why I don't feel any guilt for not being able to complete the another 1 and a half questions which even I am given extra half an hour, I am still not being able to do it because the truth is, I don't know how to do. I don't know how I am going to score for this unit, but should be fine.
Life's simpler without too much of expectation.
In life, we meet all kinds of people, those who are nice to you, those you are nice to. The one that you tried your best to impress and those who tried their best to impress you but again, failed badly in both ways. Its pretty interesting to note that how easily someone could reject you from their life and you simply reject others out from yours at the same time. Or maybe you like someone, but never dared to tell and end up regreting why u did not take the initiation.
Hey, face the fact, how many times, or in fact, how many people could accept rejection open mindedly and the next moment you're telling people "business as usual" ?
Maybe you would say its the matter of how good you are in hiding your own feelings. Or maybe the better you are in hiding your feelings, the harder for someone else to decode you.
In fact, since A-Levels, I realise that not everything's perfect. You may spend hours and sleepless nights doing your reports and assignments and some would scoree way much better than you by spending a fraction of the time. 10 years from now, I mean, even one semester from now, who cares how much you score for your assignment? Its just something that u can never change anymore.
Life's infact simpler, if we learn to take a break.
I would describe it as bad as sitting corkscrew for the first time when you are not an adventurous person.
Seriously. I myself got freaked out how powerful cum scary mood swings are.
One moment where I can be super hyper for some scrumptious dim sum breakfast to super irritated to some moment where I can break into tears or I can actually have iced coffee for lunch and get java chip 3 hours later and threw my drink away when there's three quarter left because I can almost puke from too much of coffee.
or
one moment I can just wandering aimlessly in ikea with my parents that don't even pay attention with what am I saying. and we went out with nothing, except with a half-dozen of curry puff and a coke. or one moment you simply burst into tears fearing that you may end up living alone in an old lonely home. or fed up with ur parents never make an effort to remember you actually like some garlic with soy sauce and end up not touching them at all and only finished the rice with curry fish head gravy. and end up having a nice conversation with them on the way home in the car.
and end up at home and when you ask your parents for the invoice for the semester fees and your mum is screaming at you because you don't want to keep the invoice (this is because the previous sem she was screaming at you because you are keeping the invoice) and you end up sobbing.
I always wondered, why didn't I choose some place far so I can be independent? Or go into STPM so I can go into public uni and get a car so I can end up being a real uni student. I am not trying to mean that being in Monash is not a real uni life. For me, an ideal uni life is something that you can stay away from home and be independent. Not something like this. Maybe someday, if I'm rich enough, I will send my child overseas or else it would be going to STPM to experience how a 'genuine' uni life should be.
I realised that I sobbed myself to sleep almost once every month, its the second time now. Maybe the almost 4 month of summer break left me making lotsa wild imaginations because taking marketing is sort of relaxing minus the fact that the exam is on the 5th day of CNY. Other than that was perfectly fine. Maybe I shall wait till uni starts where everything's back to reality. With all the assignments kicking in and what you want is just a decent hours of sleep where 7 hours of sleep is considered a heaven.
Oh well, Uni life should be something to be cherished. I HOPE. I knew I would be grumbling why the heck I am taking this unit and stuffs later on.
Had been having a fruitful pretty awesome summer break. Somehow, I can't wait for things to start next Monday, new semester, new experience, meeting up people and new wardrobe. Ahaha.
What had I done during the holidays? Let the pictures do the talking.
Shifting to a new house soon, hard to describe how much of anticipation or eagerness to shift but hey, I am going to have my own private space very soon with a big wardrobe for my clothes, books, skincare stashes and my pretty heels.
Got my Ipod Touch, some substitute for iphone I guess. I guess we'll never experience post-purchase behavior (from marketing) from this purchase. and I am loving every moment with it, except with the fact that the time and day runs aways whenever I sync with iTunes and I have to take the effort to delete backup before I connect the device, other than that, the apps are superb awesome, I love their lomo apps (previous entries)
Went to Hong Kong and it was COLD. Adapting to cold weather like 8 degrees when you are used to tropical climate is certainly not easy. and I realised that I have relatives spreading across HK and China. Did lotsa shopping in Shen Zhen and I wish Malaysia would be that cold someday. At least I can mix and match and booties and coats. Its a different culture I guess.
Saying goodbye to two besties at the same time. Its hard and this shall not require further elaboration.
Up to genting with the girls and I sat corkscrew for the first ever time. Call me coward, but I never actually realise that challenging something new feels so awesome and I somehow became a thrill seeker. and what you actually need to do when you're scared is SCREAM.
And not to forget, Valentines a.k.a Single Awareness Day for me. People had been asking: 'Why you don't have boyfriend?'
Again, being practical and stuffs, finding someone taller and smarter somehow became a pre-requisite for me. and oh well, apparently people who are born in the year of Horse is going to experience a awesome year with a great relationship ahead. We shall see. :)
I am somehow ready to face University life all over again.
A way to describe my holidays now. I am somehow exhausted.
Summer class started and somehow I start to have some regrets. I have to drag myself up in the mornings where there are class and I would somehow ask myself, why the heck did I choose to fill up my blissful holidays with summer classes? I should have just enjoyed my holiday to the ultimate max isn't it?
Business is something so alien to me that I have to put extra efforts in it. I am not one of those lucky lass who could go to uni anytime they want and me, having to wake up at 6.30 on the mornings where classes are on and stroll around the campus till the belowed library opens at 8.30 in the morning during the holidays.
I guess I need to, somehow practice self control. I would say, I am out of control in cravings. Sigh. Every day, when I reflected what did I eat, do and stuffs like that, I would somehow ask myself, when is the change going to happen?
Frankly speaking, I don't know.
And frankly speaking again. I am being a nerd now. Going to go through my marketing notes and textbook and going to spend time screening through those journals about assignments tomorrow till the tutorial starts.
But I gotta say, business people are more outgoing as compared to science and engineering nerds. LOL. Thats what the lecturer regard we people as. I wouldn't say i am a nerd, at least I know I am not la. But hey, there's no such thing as a theme day or birthday celebrations in science and hoping those lecturers to chip in some money for the celebration? No way u can see it in science.
P:S: I am actually darn sleepy at the moment despite the 2 hours nap today afternoon. =(
Sometimes, think at the brighter side makes you feel that a change is ain't that bad afterall.
Study break? Its under progress. Not to say very good, but. acceptable. You can't expect me to face-textbook every single hour in my study break isn't it?
Sometimes, just follow the flow. Why get stressed up when you see others got stressed up? Its yourself anyway. You score and study for yourself and not for others.
Life is short. I may not be a bright student that scores HD all the time. But then I am who I am. Sometimes, jealously and 'kiasu' ness really bring you no where. =)
p/s: Not refering to anyone. As I say, my own thoughts.
Just woke up from a 2-hour nap and I know 2 hours is more like a deep sleep rather than a nap. Gonna hug on to my coffee for the next whole month.
Back to my high school days, studies and idolisation don't go along well. Like really. But then back then, going to wherever my idol goes has been a norm. If you don't know who my idol is, its Nicholas Teo. I seldom mentioned it to people though. The years and years of support. Long story back then.
In fact, my uni friends were pretty shocked hearing that I was so into him back then and showed them the mv during karaoke left them shocked.
Why? Because it doesn't look like ME at all.
You will know why, after watching this MV. Spot me.
I gotta admit, I changed a lot since then. I guess the changes really started when I started wearing contact lens. I am a girl with glasses for like 9 years before I am able to persuade my parents to let me wear contacts for the first time? And I am loving it more than ever. It sort of changed my life. and when dad always ask me did I bring my glasses along to uni? Erm, no. The probability of my lens falling/torn into 2 is pretty low. Though it DID happened back in college. My lens actually torn into 2 for I don't know what reason and I ended up wearing contacts one sided and didn't bring my glasses.
I guess another phase in my life would happen if I am ever able to lose the extra baggages in me. Its hard and it has always been a struggle. Oh well.
The most annoying part ever is when you see your relatives every chinese new year and they were saying that 'ohhh, you grown bigger' when you did not. Heck.
Who the society always think that a girl who is tall and slightly curvy is intidimating? I didn't wear any 6-inch heels and I am in my regular shorts+top?
Stress is getting me tensed up. SHALL Study now orelse I will regret when the result is out.
The day we grew 4 inches taller and catching up with good ol' days
Sunday, July 25, 2010 || 4:34 PM
I am going to miss this girl. Future dermatologist.
We used to sit together, eat together, toilet together, talking bout 'File' together, trip together, shop together and crap all sorts of nonsense together.
I remember how I used to wear high heels back in Inti days, asking my fellow classmates in my class to wear along. I sort of miss those days.
I was a avid fan of heels, though I know I am rather tall. And wearing heels itself make me look intimidating and huge. But who can resist the love for that?
Dad ask me 'are you going to open a shoe store or what?' shoeboxes are stacking up in my house.
Went to pyramid during our friggin 5 hours break as there's no tutorial. We watched Inception and watching how Leonardo Dicaprio changes from the way he used to look in Titanic. From a young man into a urm, mature, sophisticated one perhaps.
I wonder, how gracefully will we age?
While waiting for the lift.
And we ran back and broke a couple of road rules on the way back because we're rushing for a class at 3pm. Jam at pyramid at 2 something? you must be kidding and you're stuck in the middle of the jam at 2.40? oh no man. and Monash is just 5 mins drive away minus the jam.
Seriously, I miss blogging. Reports come and go, once one is done and another one is coming. Craziee schedule I tell u. and I literally got pissed of with one of the online tests. Not to mention which. What's over is over though.
Seriously, uni life is kinda routine and fun. Did I mention fun? U know, again, u meet damn a lot of new people kays. My facebook album is loaded with uni photos. Fond memories though.
Its time to be serious.
But occasional 'acting' cute pose is pretty fun too. Hahahaha. its just priceless.
How many demos will do this with us?
Hahahaha. Great bunch of friends, lots of *cough* eye candy. Haha, not a lot, at least I notice a few.
Back to my beloved bio book which weighs around 2 kgs. @.@
Reports. Assignments. Readings and now plant diversity is literally killing me but I've completed my masteringbio!.
Me vs mastering bio. I won with 92%. Okay lah, the chapter was a killer, but there's something called google and wikipedia. XD
And when we are rushing for our blackboard quiz for biology. Okay, it was like an arms race with the time. 30 minutes for 20 questions. Still bearable. Can't 'wait' for that FST one 30 questions, 35 minutes, so sure must study.
A picture taken by my friend when we're helping each other for the blackboard quiz. Its just purely luck, one may get relatively easy question and some is killer hard and you hate it when you get lengthy questions when you got only like 1-2 minutes to read each question?
Terms like Excavata, Euglnozoans, kinetoplastids and etc is flooding my mind now. =/
How interesting could it be when you could meet all sorts of people in one place. Uh, I mean Sunway area. In some xxx place in Sunway Pyramid, I saw one lady put on a gothic make up which freaked me out for a couple of seconds. You couldn't imagine how unique it could be, till u see it with your own eyes.
As for my lecture hall, yeap, all sorts of people, from nice people to nerds and geeks, from super talkative which we name that person as lipid oxidation and 97 (there are stories behind all these). How interesting could things be?
Your friends may be coming from other state or country and you would seriously be facinated when they tell their stories.
Or when you and your group are so called 'stalking' some leng zais in your own lecture hall, trying to make eye contact with him. Hahahaha.
Or discussing which lab you enjoy the most. and hopefully you won't bump into your 'favourite' lecturer when you stepped into the office and the next moment you see him.
How hectic is year 1 man. But holidays are coming.=))
My typical weekday. Wake up. Monash. home. dinner. a bit of TV. assignments+reports+revision. sleep. The cycle repeats. everyday. How lifeless right? What to do, Monash ma.
I don't have enough money to spend everyday, or I should say things here are expensive. Cheapest thing I can find here is Nasi Lemak= 1.80, Roti canai=1.00, Nasi goreng=1.50
And sometimes some simple plain rice with one boiled egg, vege and ikan bilis can cost you 4.50. WTH? People go into Monash doesn't mean he/she is rich, unless like you're given allowance of 100 bucks a week. I guess on some not so loaded day I would be down with sandwiches. Not a bad way to go on diet.
If you watched some advertisement on Oreo Soft cake recently, it looks not bad, at least it wouldn't be that bad since Oreo cookies was good. But too bad, I was wrong, its just normal. it was a dissapointment in fact. And I don't know why I just grabbed all oreo stuffs in Giant today. oreo softcake, oreo twin pack cookies and oreo waffle stick. yum yum.=)
I think food science is getting interesting but not bio. =(
Back to my books. I am done with the FST and quiz. I need to start drafting my bio essay.=(
Reports and reports and assignments are waiting for me, it will never finish for I don't know what reason.
I am sort of adapted to Monash life now. Reports are like homework. Assignments are like my good friends.
Sort of found a group of friends over there, in fact I would say quite a number of them. And interesting thing is we sort of found some random people in our lecture hall that gave us some Lee Hom feel. Sounds a bit over but trust me, you can instantly get that kind of aura when you saw that person.
Lol. Well, I wouldn't say Monash is for rich dudes or stuffs like that la, but seriously, its something really different than I used to encounter. Plagiarism sounds something important as we have to attach a plagiarism declaration page every time we send a report.
Good looking dudes? Probbaly quite a number. and I find Food Science so engineering-ish for I dunno what reason.
and I need sleep desprately. and there's chem assesment tomorrow.=(
At least thats the only thing I can ask for now. Seriously. My life had been revolving around study, assignment, lab reports. And did I mention, I don't even have enough time to study. Lab reports are lengthy and it must be typed. And imagine those allignment ment wrong when you have completed a 12 page Food Science report? Disastrous.
List of things waiting for me: SCI assignment Bio report SCI project Bio quizzes
We pay the extra fees for the sake of making us into a NERDS.
Seriously, I barely have 6 hours of sleep everyday. Except weekends where I got slightly more generous amount of sleep which is around 7-8.
When I thought I am currently recovering from my flu+cough(I am eating some medication) and I think I'm perfectly well till during the FST class there's some random guy who sneezes right behind me and there again, I'm having flu!. I dunno whether this thing has a relation or not but it sure sound yes now.
Uni life had been really interesting. I sort of get used to the 8-5 schedule. I think besides sleep, I spend another part of my time in Monash.
Lotsa things to do, lab reports. Its chaotic, at least to me, I broke one pipette. Sounds great and I dunno how much should I even pay for it. But well, I think I found a niche in Monash. I guess.
Had been spending quite wisely. But a few dollars at a time, I still end up broke ok?
Lotsa lectures to catch up, especially bio. Now I seriously love chem more than ever.
*My nose feels like its going to drop off anytime soon if I continue rubbing it.
